If you have been following my journey at all you would know I suffer from endometriosis. It’s a bitch it really is. I also have been in a medical menopause for a year now. I workout pretty much daily. Enjoy food in moderation and am an online fitness coach. Health is super important to me and so is self belief and mental health.
I stress to my customers to be nice to yourself not to focus on the scale. But other changes. Falling in love with yourself: that the number on the scale although it is some indication of health. The scale itself does not measure success.
But if I am being 100% honest with you all. This part is hard for me! I was that person that would weigh them self multiple times a day that fucking thing haunted me. And my self worth went down when that number went up or didn’t budged. I got better with it I stopped caring I really did. But over the past yr being in menopause at 32 and watching my body change get curvier and shape differently is throwing me in old habits. I can tell how different it is, cheats cling on me quicker.
My last Drs appt to talk about my hopefully final surgery I was paralyzed with fear to get on the scale. I knew it changed I can feel it. I was right. That appt was weeks ago and I find myself obsessing over that fucking number. Everything’s been different. How I’m feeling, working has pretty much stopped and I hate that I live my job!
But here’s the thing guys, sometimes the coach in me comes out. I am literally in my underwear writing this. And that scale doesn’t mean shit. Yes my body changed but I am in better shape now then I ever was in my early 20s. I’m taking my own damn advise and choosing to be kind.
So here we are 3 days from surgery, I just thought I should give you all some insight into what’s been in my head.
I’ll keep you all updated on that. For my Endo sisters keep fighting.
I see you.
I see your unhappy and tired.
I see you never putting yourself first.
I see you hiding in baggy clothes or your towel when you wear your bathing suit.
I see you looking at those girls that rock their bodies in complete and total confidence and that you would kill to be that comfortable.
I see you hiding from your spouse as you get changed because you know that you no longer have the body that they fell in love with.
I see the fear that you think the only boy you ever loved will leave because the only other man you really loved left you constantly so much that one day it became permanent.
I was you.
I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to feel like that.
It doesn’t have to be that way.
You can take care of you.
You can feel confident, happy, and healthy.
You can change your mind.
You can know how loved you are and how attracted your husband is to you.
And I can help.
I know this post won’t resonate with everyone. But if I reach even that one Mom that can relate. I want to encourage you to message me so we can chat. ❤️
Today is Pre Launch day for Beachbody’s newest program. You can set the bundle packs for an additional $10 off the already discounted price.
This program is a progressional digital program. Meaning every single workout is different you will not repeat one of the workouts throughout the 13 weeks. The trainer and crew progress right along with you.
It is also based on a timed nutrition plan. You know exactly what to eat and when to give you the absolute best results.
80 Day Obsession by Autumn Calabrese: Program Details
The 80 Day Obsession workout program is an effective, step-by-step approach to building a shaped, curvy butt while simultaneously shrinking the core. It’s 80 days of obsessive focus on fitness and nutrition spread over 13 weeks.
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What is the fitness level?
This workout is intermediate/advanced. If you are just starting out this would probably not be the best thing to start with.
You will need a variety of dumbbells. Floor slides and resistance loops.
I will be doing this for the first time right along with you, this is all new to me too so I want to get your full commitment. I will be requiringg that you.
Showing up daily and participating in the group
Weekly submitted photos and measurements.
Follow along the times nutrition meal plan according to your body type and goals.
Drink shakeology to make sure you get the nutrition your body needs through out the workout.
Must have me as your coach.
Utilizing the strength bands and sliders for ultimate results.
Still quiet. I am in a funk and trying really hard to work myself out of it. So bear with me. I have a date for my surgery.
December 19th I go in for removal of both of my ovaries. My Dr continues to ask me if I am sure that I want to do this. The answer yes and no. I know the risks that come with it. And the uncertain out come. But I also know how much pain I was in before I went on to try the lupron and I know that I cannot live like that. Since the Lupron is no longer an option after a yr.
So here we go again. Right now I am trying to figure out where I will be in the future with this.
Still running fitness groups. Always will so if you want to join me in them reach out! I would love to have you. And Im really needing the accountability myself right now.